I DID IT!!!! Not only did I sign up and pay for swim lessons, I actually showed up for the actual lesson. While there was HUGE dose of absolute terror involved, I managed to get past it. I know the basics of swimming, but I can not tread water (I panic) and I do not have any sort of breathe/stroke rhythm. It comes down to control. I know that I can not control the water so I fear it. Since my children seem to be water babies, all three enjoy the water, I decided it was time to face my fear and learn how to work with the water. I know I will never be Michael Phelps (unless we are talking about the joint smoking side of him....just kidding!!), but my goal is to have the confidence and the ability to enjoy the water with the minions. Finally going to be able to cross something off of my "deployment bucket list." Which is definitely become the bucket list of life....
For the record, nothing I have done is able to fill the hole left in my life while he is gone. He is the one that celebrates every success with me and the shoulder I lean on when I feel like life is defeating me. I have an awesome group of friends and while they celebrate with us and they are there to comfort when we need it and I wouldn't trade them for all the gold in the world (however, if a private island was an option.....) I really just want my best friend to be home. I want to be close enough to hear his heartbeat, to smell his soap and I want to be able to kiss him good night.......
