life continues

I feel like I am standing still. Like the whole world is rushing by. Friends are having parties, getting their kids ready for school, starting new jobs etc., etc. What am I doing? Waiting on the day he flies to get here. Why? So we can get back to life. Right now he is home at all hours of the day. Since the Army has nothing for him to do. Yes, we will get used to him showing up for breakfast or lunch unannounced. We will get used to him being home to take a nap with all of us. As soon as we have adjusted to that, he will be gone and we will have to get used to the fact that he will not be home for dinner! It is so very frustrating. I am not excited about this deployment to say the least. I am angry and frustrated that he is deploying AGAIN! I know we are not the first family to do three deployments in less than 5 years. I am frustrated because of how it all came to be. How is it possible that the slot he is filling went vacant for almost 12 months? Two weeks before this unit deployed they realize they need ONE person to fill one slot and our lives are affected again. How with all the technology we have at our disposal does one spot go unnoticed? And is it me or do some service members put more into it than they get? What about all of those that are sitting at home while others rack up deployment after deployment? Is the Army not tracking any of this?? Yet they can see who has 13 months of dwell time. We all know no one can have that much time at home! Especially if you have the job he does. No, I am not just an Army wife that complains. I gave my country my time, I would have given even more but life happened. I have stayed involved as much as possible. I donate not only time but money and skills where I think I can contribute. In doing all of this, I see who busts their behinds and who uses others to get themselves ahead.
I think I am in the worst place an Army wife can be. Frustrated and unhappy with the Army. For me that is a bad place. I love the Army. I think it is a great place for those that have a lack of direction or lack the desire to go to college straight out of high school. I think it provides some of the greatest traveling opportunities in the world. We have a great lifestyle, thanks to the Army. The pay will not make you a millionaire but if you watch your nickels and dimes it will keep the wolves at bay. Right now, even all of that is not helping me get over my frustration with the Army and those that run things. The Army would be perfect, if it wasn't run by people.