As the snow falls.........................

So I counted the weeks.......he has been deployed for 10 weeks............wow!! Has it really been that long?? Some days it feels like he left yesterday. Take Friday.....I reach into the closet and pull out a long sleeve tshirt....go to pull it on over my head and smell him all over it. All I could do was cry! Oh I miss that smell. The smell of my man getting home from work, his smell as he gets out of the shower, his smell as he shaves for the day. They say the sense of smell is the strongest of all the senses...I would have to agree. Amazing how a smell can take you back to a memory that occurred years ago. Like when he first started kissing me goodbye, for the day, after he had shaved......the smell of his shaving cream, gives me that loved feeling I have when he is close enough to kiss. Ten weeks have passed and I still wake up wishing he was next to me. Ten weeks and the nights are still lonely. Ten weeks and I still cry in the shower. Ten weeks and I still get asked the same question...Momma when will Daddy be home? Ten weeks and my heart still hurts like the day we dropped him off. The tears don't come as often, but I catch myself having to take a deep breath every morning to keep them at bay. Life continues to progress...even with my best friend so far away. The sun comes up and the sun goes down.....the kids and I play the same game everyday. We find ourselves without him yet we continue to find ourselves getting on with everyday. I find myself coming home at the end of the day still expecting him to be on his way home so I can share how my day went......I get home and the house is empty......amazing how the mind works.
I am thankful for the people that I have surrounded myself with. Although our situations are unique, we have a bond. We take care of each other, we lean on each other, we fill a gap that is left when our guy has to leave, we make room in each other's hearts to stay there when they return. As the countdown marches through the Christmas season, I am grateful for the extended family we have found. I know the kids feel the same way. Un dia la vez.....