time.....

Time is a relative term. Time flies, time slows, time speeds by......

I have always thought of a lifetime as being great lengths of time. Reality is, a lifetime can be seconds of time, minutes, maybe even hours. I came to this conclusion on probably the worst day of my life. I know others hold this day as the very worst of theirs too. What started as a phone call to wish congratulations turned into a week of learning and finding new appreciation for the value of time and life. June 25 was a day of joy DG graced us with her tiny appearance and continued her battle to live. Unfortunately her little body was just not strong enough to withstand all the complications. June 26 is a day filled with sorrow and grief. Even though DG was not my child by birth my heart aches that I will never see her grow, I will never hear her laugh, or even know what color her eyes were. Yet, I know she is in a place where there is no pain and no suffering. I don't know all the reasons she was sent. But I do know that my family is blessed beyond reason to be who we are. We may not see eye to eye on everything but when the goings get tough we are there to support each other. These are the words I wrote for DG's momma the day we buried our precious Angel.

The blessing of a child can only be called a miracle. The loss of a child can only be called a tragedy. There are no words or reasons that can fill the emptiness that losing you has created. Yet, in your short life you managed to do what most strive for on a daily basis. You moved mountains with your strength and filled oceans with your love. We do not mourn because you were taken from us, we mourn because we were not taken with you. All we ask of you sweet angel, is that you smile down on us from the Kingdom of Heaven to the path of love so that we may be together again some day.

There really are no words to diminish the pain of losing a child. I grieve everyday for this baby, I know I will never heal from this wound. Right now it is about learning to live with the ache.......